November 04, 2007
Dreams - My other reality
I dreamt of Desmond, and that we were getting married. He proposed and I agreed. We were at some religious site, I think it was a Taoism temple or something. Then, I saw Jas CL. She was on her way to somewhere. She saw me and somehow, sensed there's a call of happiness. So, she asked if I was getting married and I answered the affirmative. She was really happy for me. She told me she's glad I found someone to share my life with.
We were at a flat. Apparently, our new flat. And we were like a pair of lovebirds on honeymoon again. Everything was really sweet. We were, after all, preparing for our wedding. Until I realised something is wrong. He is not the person I want to marry. I knew that I don't even love him. How can I marry him?
I realised it's a dream. In my dream, I found out I was dreaming. I can't possibly marry him even if it was a very pleasant and contented feeling I had, having found someone to take care of me. It's just an illusionary kind of comfort. So, I decided I had to leave this dream. That's when my dream became an ordeal.
We were getting ready to leave the house to go to his parents' place for dinner. I got him out of the house first. Then, quickly shut the door behind him. And he shouted for me to open up and asked what was wrong with me. I refused to open up. I just wanted to leave this dream scene. I ran into the bedroom and kept telling myself this is a dream and that I had to wake up. I fed my mind with images of me alone, which I knew was the reality. I forced myself to remember that whatever it was about Desmond is over and that I had to get away from this dream.
Someone was outside the bedroom, I could see a shadow from the window. Whoever it was was trying to come into my bedroom from the window. I closed and locked the window immediately. The only thing on my mind was that I had to wake up.
Then, I did. Desmond disappeared and in my dream, I woke up to find myself alone in my room. There was absolute silence, and calm.
Shortly after, I woke up. Damn tired. Wondered if it was the dream or cos I slept late yesterday. Been having rather vivid dreams recently.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 15:35